He wants to give you a "snow mobile"....

  Our wonderful Pastor Lane spoke about God's Timing last night. It was a small crowd, quiet and still. Partly because of the rush of the holiday and the final pit stop before the holiday weekend ended.  He specifically stated "I am speaking to someone right now when I say, "it will all happen in God's time, in His will".  Ok Lord I hear you! It is me! I confess!
  I felt Jonathan and I needed to go down for prayer. No one really knows publically that we are longing for a baby, so I felt safe to snag Pastor after the service. He described it like this...
  If God knew you wanted a snow mobile He would really (he emphasized the word really) want to give you one. If you were asking for it in the Summer, He knows that it would not be best to have it until Winter.
  So I know all of this, but I just can't fathom the love He has for me. I can't understand that He wants to give us the desires of our heart. Of course He wants to give us a baby, He ordered us to be fruitful and multiply!  I can hear our late pastor Frazier in heaven, "sure did take you guys 4 years to come around, after that song in your wedding, I would have given it 6 months! I've been wondering how long it was going to take you guys."  He started asking us about kids right after we came back from our honeymoon!
   If you know anything about Jonathan, he doesn't do anything fast... 3 months to kiss me... 7 years to propose and 3 to want children. But I must say I wouldn't have it anyother way. I thank God for his patience, because I have the "want it now" feeling on most things.
  Back to Pastor Lane praying over us... he began praying over any hinderances & mentioned our spiritual walk lining up with God and all the other details that may hinder this from happening including physical hinderances. The thoughts flooded my head, "I am the closest I have ever been with God, I hear His voice all the time. Jonathan & I are at our closest too. What in the world could it be?" 
  As a nurse I analyse everything in the physical too. Statistics show that a couple trying to conceive for a year should consult medical attention. I don't feel at peace with this yet. I feel God saying, "Just trust Me." 
  So Father all I want is your will. I know this month isn't our month and this year isn't your year for us to conceive, but maybe 2010 is! Father what ever the case may be I want to be ready in the waiting.
  For all of you "in the waiting" for what ever your desire is. I pray that tha Lord would draw you closer to Him to hear his voice and hold you in your time of waiting. This time can seem dark and lonely, but it is quite the opposite. It is a time of when he draws you to the quite place to pour into you to prepare you for the journey ahead. He wants to make sure it is "winter" so that you will see how awesome it is to "have a snow mobile"! 

Be blessed!
EWO,
Jennifer